Two weeks ago, as I was completing Proper Grey Areas, I felt something was missing for the editors. I was frustrated that I didn’t feel whole as a writer, poet, and author. The burden of doing what others thought I should be doing weighted heavy. Each morning during my runs, I mentally wrestled with the problem.
Each morning, I searched for answers in the highlighted passages in two of my favorite books, Sacred Contracts, and the Anatomy of the Spirit by Caroline Myss.
Reaching into the dark corner of my soul, I was blocked by my ego, which served as a gatekeeper, as I, once again encountered fear. I kept thinking about what would I have done differently in the past if fear had not been part of the equation. Fear of what others think, fear of the results, fear of not receiving approval, or fear of success of fully using my creativity.
As the weeks passed, my soul, heart, and mind joined together on the same path as my intuition continued to push me. I reached a point where I could no longer accept negative inherited family habits and beliefs. At a crossroads, I had to make a choice. I could continue to allow fear to hold me captive or call my spirit back.
As Myss writes in Anatomy of the Spirit, “What drains your spirit drains your body. What fuels your spirit fuels your body. The power that fuels our bodies, our minds, and our hearts does not originate in our DNA. Rather, it has roots in Divinity itself.”
Working to call my spirit back, my intuition and soul were screaming – write books that fully utilize creativity. My creativity, the core of my soul, needed to be set free, released from my imagined fear. My intuition whispered let go, write what you want to write. With the suddenness of a Texas blue northern my creative energy return.
With a recharged creative battery, I join the National Novel Writing Month contest this month with the goal of writing a holiday fun romance book. My soul wore a party hat for a couple of days while I prepared to write a Christmas novel I want to write.
Last week, I read 12 Days of Christmas, by Debbie Macomber, in preparation of writing a holiday novel. The book’s main character, Julia Padden blogs about her kindness experiment. I liked Macomber’s idea of blogging about the process. Along with writing a holiday / Christmas novel, I will be writing about the book, the food cooked by the characters and other holiday goodies.
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